i dun wanna be ALONE~!!!..

Friday, November 11, 2005
11:28 PM

Lisa's pretty sad I couldn't make it today. Guess she wasn't exactly really happy. Wish I could be there for her at the South-East CDC thingy. Oh and ya.. I missed seeing those handsome peeps. lol. =X

Anyway, my dad switched my phone to another. haha. I would rebel if it were last time. But now, there's nothing to keep. I just deleted everything away anyway. Such great timing my dad had.

I'm disappointed in the two of you man. Seeing you guys.. haishh. You guys'll never know how a friend feels. KL ahh.. Aiyo. Damn disappointed in you. Didn't think YOU will. I thought you were the more sensible one. Oh well. Hope you meant it when you said it's gonna be over. For the other, I reckon.. when his mind is set on something, nothing else matters. I'm just freaking disappointed. Damn.

And Yang Yang.. haishh.. Don't be sad alright. I'm sure everything'll be fine. God bless your family. =) muackx.

Had a pretty fun time tonight. Played basketball.. was pretty fun. Cause it was challenging. And then, we were just so freaking bored.. we went to bang hard on other people's door and ran off. Oops. Do I sound like a bad girl now? Haha. Nahh. I'm still the same old girl. Don't assume I changed. Certain stuffs are not defined just by what you see. =) Oh well, it was just fun.

I'm a little sad that she doesn't tell me everything like before. To me, having a sister.. Sister as in.. You get what I mean.. Hmmm.. Well, to me.. it's a little like having a boyfriend? I don't know.. If we're just meant to be friends, so be it. Nevertheless, I'm still happy. Just a little disappointed? Haha.

I feel happy when you call. I like being with you. I like talking to you. I like your friends. I like your character. I like everything about you. But.. I just don't think it's love or something. I mean.. I just don't feel.. I dunno. I don't wish to be somebody's girl. The problem isn't with you. It's me. err. How am I to put it across to you that we remain friends? But you won't avoid me? Cause I dun wanna lose you.. But.. Oh gosh.. I'm contradicting myself. Lol. Let nature take its own course..

Damn. I hope he doesn't read this. haha. =X

I'M JUST HAPPY. (yet not exactly very. loll.)

Small messages:
Sorry lisa. I wish I could be there.
Jessica my lover.. where are you.. God do I miss ya.. lol.
Yuyu, Hope you'll be fine soon.
Evelyn. Bu yao hai pa. It's all fine.
The two peeps. Please.. haishh.
Yang Yang.. be happy please.
ME: STAY HOME LA. lol.

`Sobing In a lil Corner..